Havent posted on here for a while but decided to due to my thought process right now. I find that It is still hard to get over that my dad past away and I keep it bottled in. I know I'm talking to myself right now, but it helps. My life has turned upside down and all around without you here. I'm still not used to it and hide in my room thinking everything will be alright. But It's okay people move on right? but damn does it take some time to get over that hump. Soon will be the first Christmas without you and I wonder how it's going to be. You were the star of the parties, because you always put a smile on everyone's face no matter how they feel. To you family is everything and I still need lots of maturing to do before I live up to your name. I miss you even though we never had the best relationship. You always had my back and now I don't even know what to do with my life. Everything is stressing and my mind is cluttered to shit. I need a sign or a path or something to point me towards my life. I'm stuck dad, and I don't know what to do.

But anyways I miss you and It seems to get harder everyday. I really miss you on christmas day.

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I hate not being able to contact you. ugh

LEED Certification?!

School is beginning to become interesting in a way haha

I get to design a persons home and he wants it to become a "Net Zero" home or as close to it as possible. In a way I am excited, but at the same time I am stressed already. I don't know how I will take this project lol anyways First couple of day's have been interesting. I am already getting busy haha and had the best time playing jenga at DTH =D. Also it was nice seeing an old friend, and If you read this, we will play ball again ( even though I suck) haha

But today was a good day.

More to tell another day haha

peace

-A

New year

Happy new years to everyone! I hope everyone will strive for success in 2010.

It feels just like yesterday that New year of 2009 happened. Time goes by soooooo fasttt haha

So 2009 was a pretty good year. It had it's ups and downs but all in all was a good time.

thanks for all the people that mattered in my life to get me where I am right now. you know who you all are =D

It's time to grow up and live a little.

2010 resolution:

- Get fit before july. It's my cousins wedding and i need to be really fit because everyone is coming down from all over the world! and also for my health, oh man i need to lose weight

- Get my 7 to it's prime, fully tuned and ready for the streets.

- Finish school and get a job in the field. I need to start applying as soon as possible!

-Travel, Travel, Travel. This is something I have been wanting to do for the longest time. I swear I will go this summer. Anywhere just as long as I'm with some friends.

- Read more books and catch up on shows. (not the biggest on the list but something to do)

- Get over it and move on so it doesn't kill me.

- Get closer with friends

- Tend to my family and my niece.

These are the biggest thing's I want to accomplish. It should be a fun year, and hope I stick to it.

Goodnight

-A

UGH

Get out of my head please

Because every time I think about it, it hurts.

It's all over now. But It's hard to get over it.

Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

why does this suck???

I hate that I care so much

fuck this shit god damn...

rantrantrant

I'm done.

peace

-A

Holidays.

It's going to be a pretty lonely christmas.

and I miss you and everything about you...

but it's not like it matters anymore =(

ugh...what do I do now??

peace

-A

p.s ilu coco.

Procrastination

2 days, 2 projects, Season 4 of How I Met your Mother.

How I Met your Mother wins.

oh please help me get through these 3 days!!!! ughhhhhhhh

But After finals it is going to be LEGEN...wait for it.....DARRRRRRYYYYYY =D

haha oh god fail.