Get out of my head please
It's going to be a pretty lonely christmas.
So my life has pretty much been a roller coaster these past couple of years. Sometimes I think that this could be a dream and I will wake up and hope everything goes back to the way it was. But who am I kidding? What's happens, happens. It's funny how everything is almost karma or as me and my friend said,"Equivalent Exchange". That's almost how I think of this situation atm. I really do not know what to think, nowadays all I'm trying to do is step my game up in school and hope things won't get worse while I am there. But let's make the best out of what we have right? ugh. In the end, I hope everything works out.
these people are amazing. and I can relate to parts of this song.
I would rant more but it's late and I have class in the morning ugh
Let's own these classes ladies and gents.
In the mean time though I've been wanting to cover some MJ songs.
not because he passed away but because he is awesome.
nuff said.
peace
-A
So school is right around the corner, and I don't really know how to feel about it.
It's as if all the emotions in my brain are stirred in a bottle with the same density.
But what can you do? nothing. I just have to stick to it and make it worth all the trouble.
Oh well I will try my best so that it will all be worth it in the end.
In the mean time I really have to setup my computer for school, get my books ready, and start cleaning my room to the teeth.
Oh hello procrastination, we meet again.
peace
-A
"No mercy is what I chemically bomb on enemies
Your life's a fucking mistake, technique is the remedy
Destroy you before you become what you intended to be
And in the future you'll worship those that descended from me"
- Immortal Technique
Why must I get knocked down?
It's as if I am a tool, slave, and nothing.
and yet I do similar things and im the one getting smited.
hypocrites, they talk smack as if they know everything,
I can do whatever i want, you don't own me.
I guess this is just a phase, it will blow over soon,
but I know for a fact that it will come back.
and when that day comes, who knows what will happen.
peace.
-A
"Check your ingredients before you overdose." - love that line
So what were we all born into?
Do we really know what we should pursue?
Do you follow your parents through?
Or do u cut off a branch and start anew?
Do chase the dream of what u want to be?
Or do you settle with what's logical?
Were u born to continue the family tree?
Or do find what u love doing?
Time's a ticking, and no one's stopping you
Every person needs to realize what is important
It's an accomplishment just figuring what's for you
And to pursue that dream like your life's on stake
Change your direction to what u want it to be
Living through someone's eyes is not the way to see
No one is stopping you, cuz in the end, you control your life
You're the one to make the dream become reality
peace
-A
Stress is kickin in, and i don't even know where to begin,
Assignments left n' right, six exams, throw one to my chin,
All that's on my mind is my life, I feel like the Berlin wall,
Not in the sense of unification, but being knocked down on my feet.
Stones of life problems being thrown all over my body,
Slowly building up from the bottom to the top, im getting beat.
They pass my face while whispering in my ears,
"Hey, just give up, you're gonna fall in tears"
or even " Disappear dude, just dissapear"
The stress keeps building, with less than two weeks left,
But I have to keep trying so my life doesn't become a theft.
So with stresses in one hand, and success in the other
Hammer to the stones till it's gone, and create another,
Soon to become, the success of my troubles.
So with Success and Perseverance in both my hands.
I mold them together to get me through these stands.
My life's on demand, and needs to understand,
I can succeed, I can't stop now, I've got Big Plans.
Peace.
-A
"I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in, and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
But I already won first place"
"I never thought I'd fall for you as hard as I did
You got me thinkin' bout our life our house and kids, yeah
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
'Cause girl you came around and you knocked me down
Knocked me down"
It's hard to change your habits, but she changes me.
It's easy to stay angry, but she calms me down.
It's not easy jumping back from failure, but she keeps me going.
It's easy to hate life, but she makes me realize what life really is.
Keeping me at ease,
Relaxes me everyday,
Someone to turn to,
My bestfriend.
Iluvyou
Although i don't really know who he is and such, this was a beautiful goal.
Nicklas Lindberg
I just skeeted fyi.
peace.
-A
Like every other day, I go take the bus to TC, and usually I don't mind it and I mind my own business and everything. But today just pissed me off you know why?
god damn hood rats. Usually the term for hood rat is:
Hood Rat: A straight slut from the hood.. the kind or girl that has probably slept with you and four of your best homies... Usually lazy as hell ..they are known to party a lot.. easy to take advantage of.
"that girls a straight hood rat"
But in my eyes a hood rat is just a dirty person ( usually youngins) that either act's really gangsta, or just is plain out dirty. It can be used towards males or females.
So now that we got that out of the way, I was just angry couple of days ago because these young hood rats ( I would assume around 14-16 ) were smoking some ganja right in front of me. Like wtf? I mean i could care less where you smoke that, but that is rude as hell to smoke in front of a random person. that is just plain old "Hood Rat". Also on that same day I see this hood rat kid spit on the floor every minute. He pretty much had a pool of spit on the ground. It was disgusting.
Where are your parents you young retards? Like you would think you would raise a good child. I mean some parents are hood rats themselves, and if thats the case, i feel sorry for those kids. BUT I don't care, your kids need to learn respect. what happened to the good old belt whipping? Physical discipline i think is a good way to teach your kid what she can and can't do. Anyways that pissed me off so much.
These generation of children need to learn some damn respect. ( I sound like im 60 years old)
Once a hood rat, Always a hood rat.
Peace.
-A
So After a Hard days of studying, me and my homies went to play ball. Although it was chill games and more of practicing than anything, I realized we have some decent potential. I honestly think we should make a community league team and rip that apart! maybe not rip them apart but be a good contender. I want to start up a team and just Cross some posers over.
These videos pumped me up like crazy before ball
Derrick Rose...Idol Numero uno
Russell Westbrook... Idol Numero Dos
And finally Blake Griffin..Idol Numero Tres
They are Ridiculous..
On the other hand, I am pretty excited for street hockey season. I've been having this craving for so long and i actually think i
might play some goalie?!!!? I love dangling and shooting (even though i suck) but it's more exciting when i make a glove save, or stop an impossible goal. Now that's ballin. If i save enough and we all pitch in for pads I would definitely try to be a goalie from now on. good ass workout haha
oh and SPARQ TRAINING anyone????
Anyways Good day too all.
To everyone out there, I live a dramatic life. I can probably make a tv series out of it because of what's happened/happening. It's really stupid and what I hate the most is that i have to lie about a lot of things. I have to act like my life is fine even though it isn't.. And I know "3rd world countries are far worse then you are" but whatever lol. It kills me how much this bugs me, and even as I am writing this, I still have to keep it inside...but whatever, I gotta just accept it and move on right? I just hope I can finally put these things past me and have a future.
Lately I haven't been having the family/cousin time. Being so busy with school and all, I can't make time for them. My grandma had surgery and I haven't even visited her and she just came back from Philippines like 2 weeks ago. I never made the initiative to see them. Family is really important to me, and not seeing them is killing my moods. Even if some of my cousins are annoying, i still wouldn't mind seeing them. ugh i miss my family =(
One thing I dislike the most is how my house is always messy. My house acts like a dorm and nothing gets done. It's like a bunch of frat boys living together and it becomes a shithole of an apartment. Sometimes after a long day of school I want to sit down with my family and just talk about how things are going.... half the time I don't even know where anyone is. Only person in my house is boots and me..and I have to say he's a good listener haha but yeah that's saved for another day. So yeah this is my little emo mode/deep thoughts/ just shit on my mind I need to say out loud
And this Isn't a pity read, its just what's on my mind.
so new post soon, and it's good to be back =D
So I haven't written a blog in a while so I think ill try to write some more soon..
maybe a deeper post coming soon!
So I'm detailing class drawing a section drawing of a door this is balls boring
Time to pass time by!
So i haven't wrote a blog in a long time... and I'm sitting in "the docks" with elizabeth.
and wow fucking first class was so fucking boring, oh my
building codes are overrated and makes me want to kill myself
ugh and still another class to go.. =(
semester of hell =/
more to come since i have nothing else to do in classes =/
